Farewell to my best canine friend.
Last night I was very restless and had trouble sleeping. I tossed and turned and eventually fell asleep but only to be awaken by Princess Tamiko jumping off the bed as she followed Uma towards the bathroom as she normally does but before she got close to Uma, she collapsed and began to yelp and scream in pain and discomfort. I lept out of bed immediately and came to her assistance. I put my hands on her body to bring healing energy to ease her pain and bring greater balance as we often do. Within a short time, she regained her composure and was free of the pain but somewhat short of breath. She was panting heavily and so I picked her up and brought her to the bed.
I massaged her to help calm her down and held her around my arms and body. She calmed down and started to breathe slower. It appeared initially like she was just resting but then she tried to get up but could not. I prayed that she was surrounded by our love as Uma and I began to sense something was terribly wrong. Bella was on the phone listening in and offering her support from out of the country. Princess Tamiko jerked a little and then gave out a long deep exhale. Meanwhile, I could feel her heart flutter continuously until all of the electrical energy and pranic energy that sustained her life were suddenly released and dissipated leaving her listless.
Profuse tears poured out of our eyes and down our face as we let out a loud cry of despair. We wailed at the loss of our dear Divine friend.
No pain is greater than that which Is caused by the loss of someone special.
The void one feels within is so overwhelming when the one you loves suddenly disappears.
It was so unreal. I kept thinking she would suddenly wake up but that never happened. The backyard was strangely quiet and somber more than usual. The usual morning sparrow didn’t sing her favorite melodic song and tune today. Instead, an alternate bird came in its place and began singing a few bars of a very terse and unceremonious song. It seemed as if she sang a brief song to announce the transitioning of Tammie to the next realm.
When Tammie left and breathe her last breath, she blew out the pilot light in my heart. I just felt so numb and dumbfounded by her quick and unanticipated exit and transition early this morning at 4:00 am.
Immediately after Tammie transitioned, I made a prayer and decreed that Tammie would be given the gift of increased consciousness and be awarded a wonderful and happy life in her next level of existence
When it was time for my morning meditation. I decided to do a special session to connect with Tammie before her final departure. After some time, my consciousness began to connect with Tammie’s. I could see and feel she was finally free from all pains and limitations. After our oneness and connection, the time had come for her to leave and then she was swept away by the Cosmic wave into her next level of reality.
I eventually contacted our vet and they told us to bring in the body. We carefully wrapped Tammie and place her comfortably in a box and began to take her over.
As I carried her outside the house towards the car, I could feel the wind blowing the trees. It was weird but there was a peculiarly solemn feeling that filled the neighborhood. There was not a single sound like there usually is. Not a single bird was around to sing its morning greeting. Even when the trees danced with the wind, they exuded a sad energy of loss. I felt like the Universe was in suspended animation as it watched me carry about this special and Divine Soul that was an inspiration to people, animals and the elementals. It was a very strange and unusual perception and feeling I felt deep inside.. Nature seemed to subdue her energy and normal joy and vibrancy to show reverence to Princess Tamiko as we proceeded with our informal funeral procession.
As I opened the door of the vet’s office , my eyes connected with the manager’s eyes. She was about to smile but became somber once she saw the profound sadness on our faces. I looked at her and shooked my head. She instantly knew what happened..She quickly discreetly took Tammie away and then reappeared with a very sad look on her face. She invited me in the office and gave me a tight hug for several minutes as we both cried over the loss of our special and dear friend who had a long history with them as well.
As I left their office, I looked at Uma and we began to cry again in emotional agony but tried to comfort each other. How could that have happened? Could I have been more effective? What could I have done better? All these thoughts were like dark clouds that filled my mind and inner universe. I wanted to keep Tammie alive and with us but God needed her more.
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I was in a daze all day and tried to fight the emotions that were swimming to the surface. I was suppose to see Amma today but was overcomed by my profound loss and sadness.
I decided to channel all the energy in my body and soul to doing something productive to help me cope with my grief. I decided to work on my upcoming magazine article about Gung Fu in China and Tianjin. It was fitting for me to write about martial arts. I was metaphorical fighting with all the turbulence and whirlpool of emotions within. Eventually my writing gave my mind some peace and my inner weather became partly cloudy instead of a dark and gloomy day like it was earlier.
A ray of sunshine began to pierce through and dissolve the dark clouds in my mind as fond memories of Tammie began to float to the surface of my consciousness. I remember how I would always kiss her repeatedly as I held her supine while carrying her up the stairs to my room or bring her back downstairs to her room. She always looked at me so lovingly and happily.
I remember I use to get my cheeks up and close to hers to get her to speak to me in her sweet canine langauge. She and I could talk her canine dialect. Those who watched us talk were just astonished by how we did that. I never did that with any of my other canine friends. No one else could do what I did with her.
I remembered how cute she would look with her pink bow and freshly painted nails after she went to the salon.
She was always a goofy friend and appeared to be so clueless and innocent in many things but that is just her charm. She would always put a smile on my face or bring a laughter to my family and I.
Tammie was an incredible friend and Divine Canine Being. She was always so full of love and did not have even an ounce of aggression within. She had a pure heart and only knew how to love and make us laugh with her silly little antics.
She loved everyone and was always so serene and peaceful. She brought love and light wherever she was and was loved by all. As she began to depart, I prayed that her consciousness will find a way to reconnect with us again in this plane or the next. She was indeed special and she, Uma and I had a very strong bond of love that linked us together. Though we are separated we really aren’t because that Cosmic Love will always bring us back together again.
Eventually I had to attend Alex’s second award ceremony. I had to put on a happy face to support Alex in his special ceremony but deep within I was still crying. My Divine nature knew Tammie was already well, happy and thankful for all our love and support. However, my human nature needs to mourn and still go through the griefing process. The pilot light of my heart may have been blown out temporarily but I will reignite it as I return to my meditation practices, prayer and devotion.
Tammie, I love you very much! We all miss you so much! You lived a perfect and loving life and died a perfect death in the arms of those who genuinely love you and support you. May you experience a renewed and blessed life of greater consciousness, happiness and peace. May our love for each other be so strong that it will reunite us one sublime and beautiful day. I will always love you. You were my best canine friend and have taught my family and I so much about life. You taught us how to be simple and to love limitlessly.You taught us how to have tolerance and love for everyone. You taught us how precious life is and how it is not the material world or success which are important but the love for one another which is infinite and eternal. You are my best friend, angelic companion on earth and guide and teacher for how to love unconditionally. I will perfect that love so that you and I will always be together serving our great God who is the source of all love.I love you now and forever. Thank you for gracing us with you gentle and Divine Presence in such a profound way. Your love was magical and was the medicine for Max’s soul. We will all miss you but look forward to our big family reunion. Meanwhile I know where to find you in the interim. Whenever I find and see the purity of heart, mind and soul in any creature or person, I will know that a part of you will be there. You are a pint size reflection of God’s Love and Consciousness and have been a great servant and Angel of his.
You are the persona of Divine Love. We should have known this when you came to this incarnation with a imprint and stamp of a heart on your forehead and side of your body. You are truly a Divine Being in canine manifestation. We shall meet again my dearest and sweetest angel and friend in whatever form it may be.
Love and gratitude,
Dad
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